im really struggling right now

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  1. morgans vlogs

    morgans vlogs9 kun oldin

    I love you 🖤 even if you don’t feel loved remember that you are and life always works out for the best

  2. Cat Feathers

    Cat FeathersKun oldin

    @Sasha Gold hang in there beautiful. Life will get better, my stranger-friend.

  3. Cat Feathers

    Cat FeathersKun oldin

    @Jennii Caroline right?! And she is PAYING for this abuse? That is some bullshit right there. That asshole needs some humanity training.

  4. SLE smiles

    SLE smiles2 kun oldin

    I’m praying for you Morgan! The past year and a half has been extremely rough, so know that you are not alone. We are all scrambling to find ways of filling the holes in our lives. You have such a beautiful spirit and I hope you connect with what will truly fill your life with love , peace and joy. For me, it’s been knowing that Jesus loves me and is with me every single day. He has erased my overbearing sense of emptiness and continues to give me purpose in life. I’m not telling you what to believe, but I’m sure He can help you if you ask Him to. Sending you All the hugs and love in this world ❤️❤️❤️ Things will get better!!!

  5. Valerie Rainbows

    Valerie Rainbows3 kun oldin

    @morgans vlogs I know how you feel, and you are not alone. You seemed so much happier when you were with your parents, and sweet grandma. Big hugs you can do it. And that lady was rude for sure at your class. ❤️

  6. Kali MacKinnon

    Kali MacKinnon4 kun oldin


  7. Georgia

    Georgia17 daqiqa oldin

    Aw this made me cry😢 I'm sorry you're going through this it sucks. Thank you for being so honest and showing the not so "seen" side of mental health. I feel like I'm in a similar place to you and it helps me feel less alone watching a video that I can deeply relate to. Good luck on your journey x

  8. JennaBinx

    JennaBinx7 soat oldin

    We love you Morgan. Stay strong girl!❤💜❤💜❤💜

  9. This is not the Droid your looking for

    This is not the Droid your looking for8 soat oldin

    Are you still friends with Trinity?

  10. Lacey Minogue

    Lacey Minogue9 soat oldin

    You seem like such a genuine, caring person. Im happy to hear you are doing better compared to before. Hang in there. You are beautiful and deserve nothing but all the happiness :)

  11. This is not the Droid your looking for

    This is not the Droid your looking for9 soat oldin

    You need to move to Colorado!!! Your mental health needs it!

  12. Kaitlan

    Kaitlan13 soat oldin

    Why do you live alone if you don’t like living alone? Why not find roommates?

  13. Claire Taylor

    Claire Taylor14 soat oldin

    Morgan you are so strong. You are such a beautiful person, and you radiate so much positivity in this world, you're too good for LA

  14. Jenna P

    Jenna P14 soat oldin

    Okay but is your color

  15. Lina Kos

    Lina Kos14 soat oldin

    Dear Morgan! You are the most relatable person on this platform. Thank you for helping me relate to you on a personal level. I too had that horrible day on sunday where after that i fell ill with the flu bc i just wasn’t taking care of myself bc of stress, struggling with my too low of a weight to fill out any jean and i just wanna say.. i know it might be hard for you but yt is a big enough platform that you don’t need ig. I deleted it last year march and it really helped with me not comparing myself to anyone but embrace myself as crazy as i am and people tend to vibrate more to me. I made so many new friends and acquaintances that when i have those good days and i find the right outfit i light up places and then universe is just like look at her go. I know you can find your happiness and it’s just around the corner. Just find a way to see yourself as all of our friends because i bet that every girl and boy relating to this.. we could have a smores camping night in cabins and have a lit sleepover and just be human for a moment. So if you’re reading this ever, know that you are loved, supported and cherished. Even when you feel like you’re not. And remember kids, you’re 20% more attractive than you think you are! ❤️

  16. Frida Genberg

    Frida Genberg15 soat oldin

    I LOVE how real you are ❤️ You are amazing, hope you feel better ❤️ My friends left me because I have big dreams and I moved 1 hour car ride away with my (first ever) boyfriend and all of them are single. I just felt like if they can't be happy for me and supportive, I'd rather have no friends. Yeah it's sooo hard making new friends especially in a new city where you don't know anyone but you should never have friends that are not supportice and happy for you. ❤️

  17. Breanna Jordan

    Breanna Jordan17 soat oldin

    I love you ❤️

  18. smile011

    smile01119 soat oldin

    What you're going through is very familiar to me as well and many people go through. This is a void in our lives only God alone can fill. I recommend you to read a book "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Blessings and be safe!

  19. Krissy Enchanted

    Krissy Enchanted20 soat oldin

    Thank you for making this video, it helps me so much because I am going through something very similar

  20. hazki

    hazki21 soat oldin

    Girl stop apologizing for being human! This is the 1st video I've ever watched from you and I've subscribed Because you're so relatable! I really hope it gets better for you!

  21. K Jayanth

    K JayanthKun oldin

    Nice video keep it up make more related videos

  22. Trevor N

    Trevor NKun oldin

    I love you so much Morgan. I wish I was a close friend aghhhhh you deserve to be happy! You have such a loving family, and friends you need look at that more. We ALL love you girly, why you think we always come back and to continue supporting you. ALSO YOU HOT AFFFF BBIITTTCCCCHHHHHHHH LOVE YAAAAAA SIS ❣️🥰

  23. Vanessa V

    Vanessa VKun oldin

    Morgan dear. You’re depressed. You need to find yourself a good doctor and the right meds. 🥺💕💜🧡

  24. Vanessa V

    Vanessa VKun oldin

    Ahhh you Said no to the sunglasses that really suited you 😶

  25. Vanessa V

    Vanessa VKun oldin

    Morgan you don’t have to give away stuff to gain happiness. I really Wanna give you a covid Safe hug Right now 🥺

  26. Vanessa V

    Vanessa VKun oldin

    Morgan you could actually step up your therapy game - go 2-3 times a week. As in depth therapy. Maybe moving in with someone else would be good for you too. 🙏 you got this!! And honestly even if you don’t - that’s ok. You don’t have to be fine. You can feel all the feels and still be a great person. You’re actually growing right now - your soul - your self awareness - you re all growing. This is your path to becoming you. The real you. And I’m grateful you’re being so open and vulnerable about it. 💜

  27. Blue

    BlueKun oldin

    I think holding on to things good or bad is normal. I think a lot of people are going through it right now. Some days I turn in the worst version of my school work ever and some other days I act out and stay in bed and end up calling myself a garbage human. I have no clue what’s happening lol, I’m just here.

  28. Eszra Falcontail

    Eszra FalcontailKun oldin

    I get it and I feel for her but.....when people replace the word GOD with the word "universe" 🙄. The universe was created by a consciousness...this was God. Some people just get to manipulated by all this new age "the secret" stuff that doesnt have room for mistakes, pain or any form of negative outburst which is just human. We are loved anyway and we get a new chance every second of the day. Also: get out of LA

  29. Diana Marlene Lemus Figueroa

    Diana Marlene Lemus FigueroaKun oldin

    I swear you are so freaking beautiful like I can g even and I feel every single word you said it gets very hard at times and it's true you never know what someone else is carrying but you also have to prioritize YOU it's hard but not impossible my lovely ❤️

  30. Saud Alsanad

    Saud AlsanadKun oldin

    I freakin love u

  31. my REAL big family

    my REAL big familyKun oldin

    No actually you put those on and you get like 12 points hotter js

  32. Katie Altieri

    Katie AltieriKun oldin

    I absolutely love how vulnerable you get and you don't show the "perfect life" You are so real! I hate that you have to deal with mental health struggles but you are so inspiring and make me feel better when I'm going through similar issues

  33. NS

    NSKun oldin

    girl I relate to this so much. depression is so hard.

  34. Madeleine Kokiri

    Madeleine KokiriKun oldin

    I have some advice that honestly has helped me learn to love myself.. when I never did before. Whenever you catch yourself making even the tiniest self deprecating comment, say out loud "No. I am not ___." Maybe replace it with something like "I'm just being silly. I'm having an off day. & It's okay." Even if you don't believe it at that moment, rewiring what you say out loud about yourself to be more positive (or even just less critical) truly helps, even if it takes a long time. It's OK. One step at a time. 💕 I'm here for you, I love all of your work. Thank you for being you.

  35. Madeleine Kokiri

    Madeleine KokiriKun oldin

    Hello angel. 💕 I just want to say that I am going through the same painful transition, && I promise it gets better.. I am just holding out for a few more months, I know things will change.. I am proud of you, you are not alone. 🌹 Thank you for helping me feel less misunderstood, too. Much love. 💜

  36. KristaLee Raffaelli

    KristaLee RaffaelliKun oldin

    Maybe you should write a book!

  37. KristaLee Raffaelli

    KristaLee RaffaelliKun oldin

    I wanna be your friend!

  38. KristaLee Raffaelli

    KristaLee RaffaelliKun oldin

    Also Morgan. You're fucking normal okay. Idk if you know that but you're beyond normal. You're exquisite most humans are fucking unconscious (not self aware AT ALLL) dumb asses! You're self aware and smart and I just wish I could make you feel more confident in yourself cause you're a star

  39. KristaLee Raffaelli

    KristaLee RaffaelliKun oldin

    You're a beauty.. your sensitive soul radiates good vibes much farther than you think you could imagine! And this inspires me, how brave to just put your shit out there, I'm glad you have!

  40. SagitarianGypsy

    SagitarianGypsyKun oldin

    U should move from La....ur not that bishhhh anymores yano

  41. SagitarianGypsy

    SagitarianGypsyKun oldin

    I wish I could give u a hug!!!!! I love u!! Ur great and I wish I had a friend like u lol...not creepy at all! 🤪😝🤗🙌

  42. Ruth Torres

    Ruth TorresKun oldin

    I just want you to know I’ve felt exactly what your going through several times and I’m only 26. But good times are coming! Your energy is beautiful and will attract good people around you! 💖

  43. PeachyJacky

    PeachyJackyKun oldin

    Your a very sweet, kind hearted, humble person Morgan, It breaks my heart when I hear you trying ur very best to push urself to appreciate life everyday and find purpose within urself. All I can say is that what if, just my personal opinion, the emptiness u feel in ur heart and soul, or the missing piece within you is Jesus. I know other people will say other things, but just think about it, It’s not a coincidence that Every single person knows the name of Jesus weather they believe in him or not, I mean, even you say out of ur own mouth God this or God that, he’s there, patiently waiting for you to open ur heart to him 🤲 💟 I Just Pray you at least give him a chance and just see if anything happens or anything changes in ur life, you’ll be Amazed how much ur Eyes, Heart, and Soul will see and Truly feel 🤍✨I tell you, it’s just soo eye opening, Refreshing, and a Breaking Free inner feeling!!! 💫 it’s Truly Amazing, you got nothing to lose Morgan, but Everything to Gain 💝🌟 Praying for You and Everyone who comes across this comment. I Promise, I Normally don’t do this text message thing, but who knows, maybe God gave me the Courage to do it for a reason 🙏😉

  44. Bree Strong

    Bree StrongKun oldin

    I feel you dude. I've been stuck in a new state since the pandemic started and have no friends still. I'm super lonely. I'm going to dinner and the movies alone now. It shouldn't be this hard... But maybe just a trial I have to endure to become better. I know you'll prevail, Morgan. You ARE a great person and the universe will always care for you. I send you love , distant friend. Thank you for posting ! Helps fill my void

  45. Sara Dugger

    Sara DuggerKun oldin

    I feel this on so many levels. Thank you for sharing. I totally understood everything you said. One thing you said about it it zips it doesn't mean it fits. Yes, I finally excepted that about me. You're beautiful inside and out. Sometimes we just have to talk it out and cry. You did it and you don't realize how you're helping others too with vlogs like these. Thanks 🖤

  46. Chaitali Sarkar

    Chaitali SarkarKun oldin

    I can feel you... It's not easy to go through depression

  47. aola wili

    aola wiliKun oldin

    “I’m getting rid of things, I have too much clutter” “Should I get a pool for my room?!”

  48. sarah psuedonym

    sarah psuedonymKun oldin

    its okay to be not okay when things are fine!! you don't need a bad situation to justify your feelings! it's them chemicals in your brain meat!! reach out!!

  49. sarah psuedonym

    sarah psuedonymKun oldin

    for all of you out there with ze mental illness and going to college, get in contact with your disability board and your professors. Even if you can't get a pass from your college, professors are pretty understanding if you just communicate what's up. sincerely, a depressed bitch in a top ten college

  50. aola wili

    aola wiliKun oldin

    Are you still friends with Trinity?

  51. Rachael Proffitt

    Rachael Proffitt2 kun oldin

    Love you in the red dress!!!!

  52. Ziggy

    Ziggy2 kun oldin

    Its called depression. You need to talk to your doctor honey you may need to get a prescription for medication that will help with that. It could be a chemical imbalance. I understand all to well. I have suffered from this for all to many years. I take a medicine and it had me balanced out now. Smile, it will be all right!!!

  53. Kathleen Devers

    Kathleen Devers2 kun oldin

    Dude this shit never makes sense.. be as honest as you can with your dr. You are NOT stupid at all.. you are so emotionally intelligent and so empathetic and so fucking strong. Also that red dress looked BOMB on you👏🏻👏🏻 the color looks so good w your skin and eyes

  54. Kathleen Devers

    Kathleen Devers2 kun oldin

    I’m thinking about you girl. I hope you’re climbing out of this dark season. I totally get it. The cool thing is that’s you’re aware of this happening and making effort to not sink further into it and to better your life. Also that SoulCycle instructor sounds awful what the fuck is wrong w her??

  55. yvonne armijo

    yvonne armijo2 kun oldin

    Thank you again for being real, open, and honest! living alone with not a clue in the world what you’re doing with your life is so overwhelming. Love watching your videos makes me feel normal!

  56. The Good Americans

    The Good Americans2 kun oldin

    Girl get some room Mates and stop being sad and alone. And go to church.

  57. jenna silver

    jenna silver2 kun oldin

    I love you morgan

  58. Sierra Flammond

    Sierra Flammond2 kun oldin

    omg girl you look amazing at breakfast

  59. craig lamping

    craig lamping2 kun oldin

    I love your ability to be open and raw!

  60. Holly McCabe

    Holly McCabe2 kun oldin

    I have never related to something more in my whole life. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way but you sharing this video helps me ❤️

  61. leah lullaby

    leah lullaby2 kun oldin

    I literally felt the same exact way last week, I’m just now starting to feel better, you ain’t alone, love you!!

  62. Matt Dettling

    Matt Dettling2 kun oldin

    Oh god not another straight white financially privileged girl complaining about her life like anyone actually really cares.

  63. Neressa Partab

    Neressa Partab2 kun oldin

    You are so pretty

  64. Sarah Johnson

    Sarah Johnson2 kun oldin

    Are you still friends with Trinity?

  65. jamie schraeder

    jamie schraeder2 kun oldin

    MORGAN I think you are amazing!! SAME on a lot. You are doing it so well... and by it i mean figuring out life.

  66. TheCoppertoneGirl

    TheCoppertoneGirl2 kun oldin

    I’m literally watching this wearing the Not Average hoodie 🙈🙈🙈

  67. StinkyButton

    StinkyButton2 kun oldin

    Soul Cycle IS a cult. Full stop.

  68. doire aintu

    doire aintu2 kun oldin

    Am I missing something...Or what happened to Garret and Andrew? They seem like they would be great friends to lean on during this time.

  69. Anthony Oldfield

    Anthony Oldfield2 kun oldin

    Morgan, you are amazing. I feel like you are overthinking and worried about what other people are thinking. You are beautiful and your personality is attractive. Sending you a hug!

  70. doire aintu

    doire aintu2 kun oldin

    morgan got a dump truck

  71. esmeralda resendiz

    esmeralda resendiz2 kun oldin

    My sister has chronic depression and has been pretty close to hurting herself on a few occasions. I think it’s very courageous that you are open about your struggles. My sister has never let us in with her struggles and this was very eye opening for me. Stay strong!

  72. Crimson Blade

    Crimson Blade2 kun oldin

    YOU’RE struggling? Hahahaha. I can barely watch a full UZnick video. Too much commitment. Whereas can drag yourself to a cycle class? You can film, upload, edit a video that will make you money? I say congrats to you! 👏

  73. Lyndsey Zamora

    Lyndsey Zamora2 kun oldin

    Omg girl msg me on insta pls lyndsey_zamora I just wanna talk about our problem because damnn I understand youuu🥺🥺

  74. Lyndsey Zamora

    Lyndsey Zamora2 kun oldin

    Omg the laughing when you say something you dont believe😭😭

  75. Lyndsey Zamora

    Lyndsey Zamora2 kun oldin

    Sry I'm just watching ur videos so you gonna see me popping up🥰💜

  76. Lyndsey Zamora

    Lyndsey Zamora2 kun oldin

    You're not alone!!!😩🤣🤣 No fr tho I feel you girl. I be struggling with living for awhillllllle now😤😤😆

  77. Paigon Brookes

    Paigon Brookes2 kun oldin

    There is no right or wrong way to feel. We aren’t supposed to always feel aligned just keep riding the wave and pushing on. As human beings, we are extremely emotional creatures and it’s normal to feel extra sensitive and overwhelmed. It’s ok not to be ok, but its important to speak to others around you so that you can take a step back and look at your situation from someone else’s perspective so that you can visualise ways to move forward differently ❤️

  78. Victoria Castillo

    Victoria Castillo2 kun oldin

    When shopping becomes that hole you fill>>>

  79. Abbie Martin

    Abbie Martin2 kun oldin

    I can not begin to say how much your vlogs on your mental Health had helped me to change my ways and work on my mental health even at 32 I am finally going to the doctors to get help with my anxiety and depression

  80. ilina

    ilina2 kun oldin

    morgan, baby, I wish i could be around you, give you few advice on depression battling. I straight up know what you are talking about. And it’s really hard to see such a pure soul struggle so hard🤍

  81. Cass Kost

    Cass Kost2 kun oldin

    You crying while eating breakfast was honestly heart breaking but eye opening for me. Like I’m not the only one who feels like this. Im not the only one who cries randomly and feels so low some days. Im sorry you go through this too. I love your videos and I love how real you are. ❤️

  82. Tash

    Tash2 kun oldin

    Alright, so as an aggressive loving friend, I would come over and pack your bags and take you to places that will make you happy. And if I were your friend, I would buy plane tickets to get there and take you to Walmart or something. You are someone who needs to be around people physically and be with someone who vibes with you. I can’t be alone otherwise I will break down. It’s not about being reliant on someone, it’s about growing with someone next to you, lover, partner, or friend- whatever. You need that Morgan, and I hope you can find it.

  83. Jake Kardashian

    Jake Kardashian3 kun oldin

    This was crazy to watch because I've never quite related to a video like this?

  84. dolita windo

    dolita windo3 kun oldin

    literally every different part of this adhd filled video is just literally and unexplainably MY FREAKING LIFE

  85. Erin

    Erin3 kun oldin

    I have never related to anything that made me laugh so hysterically before. I feel ya girl!

  86. Morgan L

    Morgan L3 kun oldin

    girly if you don't move back to Colorado I stg

  87. dolita windo

    dolita windo3 kun oldin

    I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺

  88. Johana Rodriguez

    Johana Rodriguez3 kun oldin

    morgan got a dump truck

  89. Lisa Lynn

    Lisa Lynn3 kun oldin

    Morgan you are brilliant, smart, and gorgeous. And next time tell that lady to "fuck off" dang it!

  90. Samantha Calvillo

    Samantha Calvillo3 kun oldin

    Morgan, thank you so much for your vulnerability. This video made me cry because it made me feel seen and me feel hope. Praying for your peace and happiness. Thank you for your unmatched magic that you give this world and this platform. ♥️

  91. Karlee Mihailov

    Karlee Mihailov3 kun oldin

    Morgan you are a force to be reckoned with! So incredible, funny, kind, strong. Keep doing you girl!

  92. Madison Brown

    Madison Brown3 kun oldin

    Sis just move back to the 303 and be my best friend already! You’re incredible and you’re so valid for your feelings. I know things will turn around for the best. Keep pushing baby girl you’re doing great💕

  93. K D

    K D3 kun oldin


  94. erin nicole

    erin nicole3 kun oldin

    Morgan, you are amazing and you are enough. Please keep doing these raw videos, you are so special and help me through my tough moments. ❤️

  95. K D

    K D3 kun oldin

    I feel this in so many ways. This is me literally every day trying to get through life. It’s nice seeing big-time creators showing real emotions like real people.

  96. Really Though

    Really Though3 kun oldin

    Jesus is the way and life will never be the same in the best way :)

  97. asap.kates

    asap.kates3 kun oldin

    ill be your bestie morgan lets facetime

  98. Alicia U.

    Alicia U.3 kun oldin

    im glad i watched this after i was having a depressive episode or something along those lines, definitely makes me feel less alone

  99. Sydney Macoretta ♡

    Sydney Macoretta ♡3 kun oldin

    the fact that all of those sunglasses looked so good on you haha, i feel like none look nice on me i'm jealous!!

  100. Nora H

    Nora H3 kun oldin

    Something that really helped me when I used to feel really numb is practicing gratitude. I would write 10 things I am grateful for each morning in detail for 28 days (takes 24 days to form a new habit). It's hard to do it when you are in that state but if you push through, it will change your life for the better. I didn't feel numb after the 28 days were over! I also started recently doing Qigong 10 minutes every day , it's a gentle form of martial arts (kind of like Tai Chi) it's amazing for moving stagnant energy, helps with depression and sleep! Think Vitality with Jeffery Chand is a great youtube channel for learning Qigong!

  101. Hannah Makes It

    Hannah Makes It3 kun oldin

    Something that has helped me post moving cross country and leaving my entire life and having no friends was figuring out my love language and doing things that fulfill that for me. My top love language was acts of service so self care, cleaning, organizing, yoga and baking/cooking are things that help me feel better. My other love language is quality time, so forcing my self to date myself and go on picnics alone, hikes, reading even though i'm not a reader lolololol I'm liking the book "what I was doing while you were breeding" by Kristin newman.

  102. Hannah Makes It

    Hannah Makes It3 kun oldin

    also come move to Portland, we can be friends

  103. Ray1506

    Ray15063 kun oldin

    I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺

  104. Alicia

    Alicia3 kun oldin

    Morgan- I know how you feel... I have struggled for a long time to feel happiness. Stay strong Girl.

  105. Sylvia Claire

    Sylvia Claire3 kun oldin

    Can we be friends and have mental breakdowns together 🥺👉👈 ❤️

  106. Kimberly Quinn

    Kimberly Quinn3 kun oldin

    Thank you, thank you, thank you, for posting a video that can sum up exactly how I feel. I always feel so close to you, because I can tell we feel the same way about life. By you being strong and brave enough to post this, you are helping others like myself that is working on these mental issues as well, that we’re not alone. Bless your heart, thank you for making a video that I can share with others, that might be struggling to understand why we tend to feel this way, and what it’s like. I was literally already sitting here feeling like this, when I started catching up on your videos. ❤️🙏🏻

  107. brittneyshaffer1999

    brittneyshaffer19993 kun oldin

    No need for gd.

  108. brittneyshaffer1999

    brittneyshaffer19993 kun oldin

    Oh my goodness**

  109. ertemyha

    ertemyha3 kun oldin

    Hope you move out of LA

  110. saba dokhnadze

    saba dokhnadze3 kun oldin

    On 13:12 she looks like a boss women!! Like soo hot 🥵